MY GLITTER GOLD SHINY HAND.. WOOAHHH! XD

Again..

I'M DEPRESSED

I don't know why everything seems to upset me, disappoint me, annoy me, irritate me.. Everything that could make me the saddest person on the planet right now, I don't know.. Looks like the only better place to be is in my room, lights all off, and me asleep.. How I wish my bed could just eat me up so even for once after 1 and a half years of being here and putting up with everyone's sh*t and drama and immaturity, I could experience peace of mind..! This is horrible, you know.. And being the better human being in this house full of unbelievable people, I try to be normal and understand everyone.. But jees, wouldn't anybody care about how it affects me? Wouldn't anybody ask how I am, or how am I feeling every time there's friction in this house? I know God would'nt give me anything I can't handle, I just wish He didn't trust me so much.. It was easier to lie -- to hide the hurt!!! BANGANG!!!

I just wanna have a normal life, again.. I wanna live carefree -- without thinking about what other people would think, or say about whatever I wanna do.. It's been very uncomfortable here ever since.. And it is very unhealthy living life with a lot of restrictions.

I just want to be happy, again.. Because God, I am so lonely... :(

.::FLY AWAY::.

Selalunya,

orang akan lebih memikirkan tentang apa yang akan difikirkan oleh orang lain,
tanpa memifikirkan rasional pada diri,
tapi aku punya cara aku sendiri,
biar apa orang lain mahu fikir,
biar apa mereka mahu cakap...

I do things for a reason,
bukan ikut suka,
walau sebesar kuman sekali pun,
pasti ada sebabnya...

So, whenever I have the guts to do something,
i'll definitely feel great later...

It's so relieving,
only God knows how I feel,
when I am finally able to spread my wings...
Alhamdulillah..

Is something that makes my world go round,
at times...
Is something that turns my world upside down,
most of the time...

Mimpi ngeri

Just now,
I had a serious discussion with ibu,

Tentang masa depan...

Tentang apa saja kemungkinan yang bakal terjadi, 

Selepas 3 tahun nanti,
There are few options,
Tapi semuanya mengerikan...

Aku jadi ragu-ragu dengan diri sendiri,
Kalau tak teruskan dengan Physio,
Nak buat apa?
Takkan nak membazir waktu,

Dahla quit Architecture,
Nak masuk flying school tak cukup tinggi,

Berat?? apatah lagi!
Nak buat medical memang payahla peluang ke situ,
So the best is to stick to Physiotherapy lah kan,

I love Physio...

Nauzubillah,
Kalau yang tak diingini berlaku,

[fail, pointer teruk, takda keje]
Mana nak korek duit sara hidup?


"bu, tak nak blaja lah"


"habis tu kamu nak jadi ape?"

.....

Itu ayat random je,
Jangan risau,
Aku masih nak belajar...

Doa masih terus doa,
But we will never know... =)

Janji Tuhan

Bagi setiap manusia telah tertulis,

ajal dan mautnya.

pertemuan dan jodohnya.

percaya pada janji Tuhan,

yang baik itu tentu baik pasangannya...