Again..

I'M DEPRESSED

I don't know why everything seems to upset me, disappoint me, annoy me, irritate me.. Everything that could make me the saddest person on the planet right now, I don't know.. Looks like the only better place to be is in my room, lights all off, and me asleep.. How I wish my bed could just eat me up so even for once after 1 and a half years of being here and putting up with everyone's sh*t and drama and immaturity, I could experience peace of mind..! This is horrible, you know.. And being the better human being in this house full of unbelievable people, I try to be normal and understand everyone.. But jees, wouldn't anybody care about how it affects me? Wouldn't anybody ask how I am, or how am I feeling every time there's friction in this house? I know God would'nt give me anything I can't handle, I just wish He didn't trust me so much.. It was easier to lie -- to hide the hurt!!! BANGANG!!!

I just wanna have a normal life, again.. I wanna live carefree -- without thinking about what other people would think, or say about whatever I wanna do.. It's been very uncomfortable here ever since.. And it is very unhealthy living life with a lot of restrictions.

I just want to be happy, again.. Because God, I am so lonely... :(