Just Go Away

Oh babe, oh friend.. I hate you for always making a joke out of everything I say. I hate you for never realizing when to apologize, and when you are wrong. I hate you for making everything you do wrong my fault.

Is it a crime to have feelings? Huh?

You’re always seeking attention. Always. As if you didn’t have enough already.

I’ve put up with you for a half of the year. And I’ve wasted my time. Don't be 'sewel' and please leave me babe.. I don’t even know what to talk about when you are in full flow. What can I say?

When I want help, I never get it. When I show you something interesting, you don’t laugh, or sometimes, you ignore it. When I wait for you, you don’t appreciate or notice it. When I help you, you take it for granted. 

Aren’t we close friends? I used to think that you were my best friend. I considered you a best friend, even. I felt so close to you at times. Even after we broke off that mockery of a relationship, I still felt close to you.

I could just go drastic, and block you, and avoid you. I could. But I’m too nice. (Pehh, menipu nie!) I’m hampered by the fact I can’t, I won’t hurt another person’s feelings. 

And while we are talking, its always about you, and I never know what to say anymore. And this just keeps repeating, again, and again.

I’m a girl. And I don’t like being led on again, and again, and again. I get nothing from it. You’re taking advantage of the fact I’m a nice girl. Ahaxxx

Because of you, 90% of my posts here have come into existence. But I can’t. 

I’m probably going to go insane soon like this… there is so much I want to tell you. So much. About everything. How I hate you so much, yet how I can still love you at the same time. How you’ve forgotten the simplest things. How you use me. But I can’t tell you.

I’m still planning to ask you out for Prom, at the end of the year. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?

Is this what happens to nice girl?